emigre #69

emigre's last issue, issue 69 - 10 years ago, i would giggle at the number, and now, the number in this context makes me nothing but sad. sad that the era of emigre is coming to a close.
yes, the fonts and posters will still be available, but ever since i read the print (or was it commarts?) article last year with rudy vanderlans, talking about his decision to end the magazine's 21 year run (the first issue was put together in 1984 in a 11.5" by 17" format) - i've been saddened. my subscription to the magazine had been halted after graduation, when they started charging for issues, and my constant moving every year had me hesitant to subscribe, my loss of packages both at work and home(s) had me hesitant to order, and did i forget to mention i'm a designer and have a designer's salary?
but i thought emigre'd be around forever. why wouldn't it? here was the reason i'd wanted to get into publication design and my first influence to pursue writing about design. emigre was my first publication design project - and the work and passion i put into helped me get into the good graces of my publication design teacher - who years later called me and said, "hey, i'm the creative director at my shop now, come bring in your book." it's been almost 5 years now since i graduated, and he's been my creative director ever since. i'm throwing a little of that credit (if not for also giving me the inspiration to continue in design rather than throwing it all out the window to become a professional waitress) towards emigre.
i thought emigre'd be around for other starry-eyed design students. but alas it's not. issue #69 is slated to come out late october. that's this month. i have nothing charming to say about this at all. i am presently throwing a temper tantrum. it's like the last episode of my so called life. except rudy vanderlans is jordan catalano, and i'm angela, and i have no closure here. no closure at all.